I waited until late this afternoon to do this challenge because honestly nothing really came up for me until about 4 pm today.
I'm an introvert which all of you know by now. Therefore being/making friends with people are always really awkward which it's just who I am I can't really help that. I'm just a very awkward person when it comes to the whole friendship thing.
This friend of mine from school, the really only person who I associate with in school is absolutely crazy. I'm not just saying that, I don't even know how to explain her to be honest. She's more of an acquaintance more than anything. I've known her for 4 years and I still haven't figured her out in the slightest. Thursday the day we had school, Friday we didn't have school (thank god). She has an IEP like I do and our para asked her a question and she flicked her hand at her like a go away kind of move.
She does stuff like this all the time and I've had enough of it. Her actions to adults/people are just pure disrespect and I've had enough. She finally has lost all my respect. I can't even express how much that aggravates me. I've dealt with her beyond disrespect and her pure idiotic ways but only because she's literally the only person I have when it comes to socializing at school.
I should have done this a long time ago but this is kind of the straw that has broke the camels back. Realistically I have never categorized her as my friend but now the fact that I don't even want to associate myself with her, I have mixed feelings. It makes me not exactly sad but lonely now that I don't want to give her attention because that's what she wants therefore I can't associate myself with her. That's the only thing that makes me sad about "losing" her as an acquaintance, is that even a thing?
School is not really a worry of mine but more so just the fact that I only have two true friends that are actually my friends. 1 lives here, Lydia even though I've only known her since December and 1 who lives in another city, Erin who is awful at communication unless you are actually physically with her.
I might acting like a baby about it, boo hoo I don't have a significant amount of friends. That's not even what I'm sad about. I would rather have 2 really good true friends than a billion half hearted friend. I just don't know what my future holds with my introverted self and that's scary and makes me sad.
Is this silly or??
I'm an introvert which all of you know by now. Therefore being/making friends with people are always really awkward which it's just who I am I can't really help that. I'm just a very awkward person when it comes to the whole friendship thing.
This friend of mine from school, the really only person who I associate with in school is absolutely crazy. I'm not just saying that, I don't even know how to explain her to be honest. She's more of an acquaintance more than anything. I've known her for 4 years and I still haven't figured her out in the slightest. Thursday the day we had school, Friday we didn't have school (thank god). She has an IEP like I do and our para asked her a question and she flicked her hand at her like a go away kind of move.
She does stuff like this all the time and I've had enough of it. Her actions to adults/people are just pure disrespect and I've had enough. She finally has lost all my respect. I can't even express how much that aggravates me. I've dealt with her beyond disrespect and her pure idiotic ways but only because she's literally the only person I have when it comes to socializing at school.
I should have done this a long time ago but this is kind of the straw that has broke the camels back. Realistically I have never categorized her as my friend but now the fact that I don't even want to associate myself with her, I have mixed feelings. It makes me not exactly sad but lonely now that I don't want to give her attention because that's what she wants therefore I can't associate myself with her. That's the only thing that makes me sad about "losing" her as an acquaintance, is that even a thing?
School is not really a worry of mine but more so just the fact that I only have two true friends that are actually my friends. 1 lives here, Lydia even though I've only known her since December and 1 who lives in another city, Erin who is awful at communication unless you are actually physically with her.
I might acting like a baby about it, boo hoo I don't have a significant amount of friends. That's not even what I'm sad about. I would rather have 2 really good true friends than a billion half hearted friend. I just don't know what my future holds with my introverted self and that's scary and makes me sad.
Is this silly or??
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