poems

Vultures all around me

waiting to attack

break open my flesh

open my hurting heart

to catch the demon

that's been consuming

my soul for so long

 

 

 

 

Love will remember

when we promised each other

we'd never leave

attached to the hip

hands locked

hearts unbroken

now everything's changed

I never thought one day

I would call you a stranger

big mistake

should've known

not everyone stays

they always leave

before I got the chance to say

I love you

 

 

 

No one understands

what is happening to me?

help me

i'm all alone

I can't do this on my own

i'm scared

I don't want to die

I don't know how long

I can't carry on with an ED

taking over my body

they will find out

soon enough

he will show himself

 

 

 

I forced to myself

to let the two people

I love the most

know about my confessions

worries and fears

i'm sorry i'm scaring you

I'm just being honest

I want help

here you go

my secrets have now surfaced

I just want help

that's all

 

 

 

Andy's place

lake house

waves crashing

boat blasting

fun to get away

to beaver lake

 

 

 

This is now

the first step

to the hardest thing

I've ever gone through

now here I am

emotions stuffed down

as far down as they could be

numb from the world

except for food and the blade

this is the first step

to opening these wounds

to begin this thing

called recovery

a scary realization

the only person that can save me is myself

I've been running from myself

for so long

now it's time

to let go

and give my troubles and anxieties

to my grandfather up in the sky

he's the higher power

that can tell me

it will all be okay

 

 

 

Shrek

ugly ogre

happy villagers

are so so happy

shrek the play

Fiona a beautiful princess

shrek and Fiona united together

what is meant to be will be