Journal topic: Even on the worst days there's still a possibility of joy

Whenever i'm in a severe depression even a mild depression, i find it hard to find anything that is good let alone any possibility of it. That's the thing about depression no matter how mild it is or even how short it lasts it has a grip on you that is indescribable. When you're not in that state of mind, list things that bring you joy in life and how important you are to others because when you're depressed you won't be able to give a rational answer. It's important you are to others because when you're depressed or down to be with people who care about you like your family and friends because nothing is scarier than feeling like the scum of the earth and not having there with you who understands. When i'm depressed i like to be alone but at the same time i don't because it's sometimes scary feeling negative thoughts and impulses and being alone i'm more likely to act on them.

On the other hand i want to be alone because i don't feel like being with people because i'm an introvert and it's easier for me to get my thoughts together that way. Reach out to friends, like i said i'm an introvert so i'm most likely not going to take my own advice but it's more important to know that you are cared about and you have reassurance that you should be here to see all the amazing things that are going to happen in your life and you want to be alive and happy to see it.