poems

Want to be normal

want so desperately

to be okay and happy

I feel the panic rising

dead inside

I so badly

want to drain my demons

set them free

i'm scared

someone please help me

tell me nothing bad is going to happen

 

 

 

Depressed

from life

from the cold stares

mean voices

feeling invisible in every room I turn

i'm done

with trying my hardest

i'm all alone

with no one to turn to

when I need distractions

 

 

 

I'm sorry

don't you see

were two pieces

of a broken heart

can't you see I need you?

please don't go

I don't want to lose

everything we had

i'm sorry

 

 

 

Sensing the binge monster

slowly creeping in

stepping one foot in

then the next

soon he'll strike

as fast as I can

open the wrapper

of destruction

 

 

 

Hanging there

bones clinching

heart fluttering

hands shaking

I don't like fullness

makes me sick

 

 

 

Want to get in bed

drown my head

shut the lights off

feel my bones

becoming more visible

open the drawer

eyes on the blade

house dark

eyes closed

solid and still

my demons fill the room

my nocturnal evil friends

awaken the night

bleeding high

off the ground

now I can

clear my head

close my dark eyes

dream of happiness

in my head

 

 

 

Hello, my name is Murphy

i'm a daughter

i'm a friend

i'm a lovatic

i'm a survivor

in more ways than you know

 

 

 

Hello, my name is Ana

destroying lives

right and left

Ana is all destroying

don't let her consume

your young soul

 

 

 

I'm made of glass

fragile and easily shaken

I shine with my smile

beneath closed doors

I shatter and stumble

 

 

 

Hold up

I didn't expect this

Life is moving

at lightening speed

I don't process change well

this is all happening too fast

want to travel back in time

where I was innocent and a baby

hold up

a little girl grew up too fast

all it took was once

I'll never be the same

 

 

 

I think I have

found the strength

to flap my wings

fly out of the cage of darkness

into the bright world

flap my wings

leave the nest out of my mind

 

 

 

Strip me from my soul

strip me from evil

need to leave

move on

I can't stand this anymore

somebody help me

strip me from my demons

evil hands

scared of them

yet again they're friends

strip me from the doubt

that they're here to help

I know they're waiting

for my weakest moment

to slowly drain out the poison

and kill me