poemes

Feeling like a zombie

moaning for the day ahead

i'm a zombie

people terrified of me

I don' t want to be a zombie

 

 

want to feel numb

don't want to feel pain

need to cut

need to feel nothing

so scared, so scared

help me blade

I can count on you

when others are far away

 

 

i'm not worthy of love

scared to live

drowning into the abyss

being held down

can't find my way

back up

 

 

Screw this evil soul that is me

disappointment to everyone

unloved

unappreciated

please help me

i'm done with my own evil soul

don't want to be the monster

that everyone hates

 

 

Karma's a bitch

such a terrible, evil, despicable

human being

 

 

The numbers

numbers in my head

controlling my every move

calories, calories

daunting

can't stop this

pounding, pounding

in my head

 

 

Tired eyes

weak hair

ghost girl

walking around

 

 

People think they know me

Do you know about

my abuse, friendships, life

ED, cutting, Aspergers

Depression and anxiety?

No, don't you dare judge me

you don't know my story

 

 

stuck in this limbo

can't get out

i'm your marionette puppet

controlled by your evil hands

can't get away

try to rip away from you

you just grip harder and harder

 

 

my secrets are spun tight

my lies are deep as mud

you don't want to know

i'm to secretive

to ever let you

step into my porcelain frame

 

 

Hunger strikes

you're high as a kite

my drug is ED

the blade is slicing through my skin

empty plate

so much more

comforting like no other

leave us alone

we're just fine

leave us alone

 

 

Summer

summer is laying by the pool

hanging out with friends

summer

escaping from the hell called school

 

 

Demi Lovato

so amazing

she's my baby

she's a warrior

she keeps me strong

 

 

immortal

as could be

stuck in my mind

lost in the afterlife

stuck in the immortal

 

 

Catch me

before I fall

plummeting

towards the darkness

I don't want to go

please just catch me

 

 

Catch me

with your lovely hands

eyes locked

with your comforting soul

catch me

when I need saving

 

 

over you

you don't even cross my mind

anymore

I hate you

you will never be forgiven

i'm over you

 

 

I don't know how

i'll possibly get over you

you were my solid rock

when others

already crumbled

scared I won't find

solidity

once again

I will never forget you

even when I didn't

get to see your lifeless body

I saw your soul shine through

I will never get over you

 

 

I will love you

like i'm not insecure

like I've never been hurt

I will love you

when things are down

when we kiss

each other's soft lips

kids playing in the pool

love you baby

I will love you

like I've never heard goodbye

 

 

Weightless

as a feather

empty

weightless

everyone afraid

I will fly away

weightless

is what I crave

with my heart

as hollow

as my bones

 

 

Lost in a cage

so dark

i'm a lioness

fighting to be set free

she needs a lion

to keep her calm

 

 

Heavy hands

choking me

telling me not to speak

hands wrapped up

can't speak

can't move

locked in a room

where i'm stuck

with my thoughts

 

 

Get away

evil presence

you are despicable

despicable human being

terrible thing you did

will never be forgotten

 

 

my body against his

need to know

someone loves me

tell me you love me

 

 

Friends

we laugh

we cry

we joke

my friends

are my angels

sent down from heaven

 

 

I experience you

on and off

what do you want?

you won't fulfill

get out

you will never get away

with your sick games

 

 

Hands shake

tears come

when I think of you

you're evil

go to hell

before you ruin

someone else's

innocent soul

 

 

kept my mouth shut

for the longest time

thanks to you

hope you succeeded

with what you wish

her mouth still closed

scared of life

because of you