May 6th

Quote- "Don't ever settle"

Demi's words- People settle because they're afraid of something better won't come alone. They fear they aren't good enough. You are worth exactly what you want in life, but you have to believe it or you will never attract something better.

Goal- Take a moment to realize your worth.


The first thing that comes to mind to me is I settled with self-destructive behavior because after awhile it became comfortable. Also though while it's numbing me from the outside world my self-esteem has gone down more than I ever thought, I just thought it would help me cope but it turns out it's so much more complicated than that. As i'm going forward with this recovery process like setting up an appointment with an eating disorder specialist I get more and more nervous because i'm realizing at some point i'm going to have to give this up. It's like having someone rip away their baby blanket and never giving it back or not giving a baby his pacifier to help sooth him while he's crying. Those are the first two examples that came to mind. What will happen to my comfort? I settle in other ways too but I usually settle because it's comfortable for me and it scares me to get out of my routine or getting out of my comfort zone. I've always been like that, but i'm realizing more with my eating disorder not only do I not want to give it up because it's a coping skill but also it's a comfort that I don't think will ever be replaced.