December 28th

Quote-"When you're problems are bigger than you, it's important to reach out for help."

Demi's words- Sometimes we feel overwhelmed and even ashamed by our problems. Before i started treatment for bulimia and cutting, i was hiding from everyone, myself included. I was scared to ask for help and felt so deeply embarrassed about what i was doing i thought it would never end. If you or someone you know is suffering or struggling with any issue, it is so important to get help. You could be saving your life of someone you love.

Goal- Don't hide from yourself or others. Seek help.


This is sort of a ranty type response so if you don't care to read a long one don't read :)


It's a terrifying moment when you realize the thing that you can control becomes the one  thing that you end up not having any control over and it controls you in every form of your life. It's even scarier when you realize it's taking more out of you than you realize. I realize you bring something on yourself i do agree to some extent but once you experiment with the behaviors for a while enough to take their affect on your mind, it attaches onto you like a parasite in your mind that is a pain in the ass to get out. Once it gets to the point where you don't recognize yourself anymore and all you look forward to in the morning is the number on the scale, you become succumbed to this image of thinness which gives you this sense of power and control that you are terrified to let go. You fear the moment when you actually have to deal with the reality of life and feel every emotion that life entails without putting a band aid over the emotion with ED behaviors. The biggest thing that i fear besides feeling the raw vulnerability of emotion is reminding myself who i am without the comforting shield of constantly being numb. We all have to have hope that that it will get easier if not better. I believe that fact, the unknown is when i will be ready to let go. Hope is something i believe in and i know it is possible no matter how long it will take. Everyone has to have faith and hope that everything will get better because if we don't we will all live constantly in a state of fear.