October 25th

Quote- "Never expect, never assume, never ask, and never demand. Just let it be. Because if it is meant to be, it will happen"

Demi's words- When we learn that we can control our actions in this life, it seems confining and even unsettling because on some level we all want to feel like we're in complete control. But when i thought more about this i came to a deeper understanding that actually made me feel free. Some things may happen exactly as you planned and others may not, but in the end will be exactly as it should be.

Goal- Think about one thing in life you have no control over right now and find peace in that.


Lacking control is the main issue with clinging onto destructive behavior. I can't control most things in my life so i find something i can control, whether it's materialistic or otherwise. Everyone deals with their lack of control differently, i actually just wanted to subdue anxiety and depression at first and then later i found it to be more about controlling the things around me no matter how irrational that may be. I like to be in control of my surroundings. I can't control my parents fighting. I can't control my dad's grieving of his dad's death leading to his own coping mechanism which is drinking. One thing i can control is food. I'm scared of losing that control. What happens when that's gone?